Some days just seem so hard to get past.

I gave up my former life, I used to grow and sell weed. As well as abuse and deal many other drugs.

I am now clean and sober from all but marijuana and am only using that on a much smaller amount and not growing anymore.

I have a real day job working overnights at a rehab facility. I have a girfriend a nice place to live and a car. Why do I then feel like life is so hard?

Some days are just so hard to not go back to the easy money of growing. I find it hard to survive and pay the bills on an entry level job, and memories my former income come up every bill I pay.

I am pushing forward with the thoughts of 5 years from now I will have moved up and paid my dues and things will be better. But how am I suppose to make it 5 years in a california economy without?

Another day closer ....
and one day at a time

[Furtive]

It's all about choices, bro. More to the point. Making consious choices/decisions rather than using our auto pilot. Keep slicing the time in half and make a consious decision for that slice of time.

Soon the slices will be so small that you will notice that you're making choices/decisions for everything you do. Much better than auto pilot.

It is easier to be a crook. I used to practice this trade as well. But never the less. It is crookery. Bad choice.

Originally Posted by SkunkMaster

Why do I then feel like life is so hard?

Just because you have some of your basic needs met (food, shelter, housing, love/belongingness) doesn't mean that should equal happiness. Many of us in this country are feeling the same way and it has more to do with our society than we realize. Once we have met some of our needs we aren't given or don't have the ability to reach our higher potential. We're stuck in an endless cycle of just trying to get by. Thus, frustration ensues.

The days are hard but try to keep your chin up. What do you want from life? What's the safest and most practical methods in achieving what you want? What's frustrating you the most with your daily life? Are there ways you feel you could be more stimulated?

[sobchak]

Originally Posted by SkunkMaster

Some days just seem so hard to get past.

I gave up my former life, I used to grow and sell weed. As well as abuse and deal many other drugs.

I am now clean and sober from all but marijuana and am only using that on a much smaller amount and not growing anymore.

I have a real day job working overnights at a rehab facility. I have a girfriend a nice place to live and a car. Why do I then feel like life is so hard?

Some days are just so hard to not go back to the easy money of growing. I find it hard to survive and pay the bills on an entry level job, and memories my former income come up every bill I pay.

I am pushing forward with the thoughts of 5 years from now I will have moved up and paid my dues and things will be better. But how am I suppose to make it 5 years in a california economy without?

Another day closer ....
and one day at a time

it's hard for everybody

you're not alone in feeling that way

even if you had 10x the money you have now, there would be other things to deal with

those 5 years will go by before you know it, and if you are focused on what you need out of life then you'll get there

keep your chin up

[buddyOne12]

Originally Posted by SkunkMaster

Some days just seem so hard to get past.

This ought to help you understand why you feel like something's very, very wrong:

[smoothburn]

What the problem of going back to growing? As a former poster said, it's all the choices you make. If you're growing to supply patients....what's the problem? You don't want to contribute to the illegal drug market..but for patients. You help people and make an income you can live with..

i think the heart of the message may have more to do with dealing with the existential crisis that we all experience in life. but thats just my .02 and i could be totally off.

[JDub420]

keep the head up my brother

Doubt the topic starter cares - he deleted his account. Sad but true.