[tommicats]

chemo...again


OH THE POUNDING IN MY HEAD

HOW LONG WILL I BE IN BED

THIS THING CALLED CHEMO THAT I DREAD

THE FIRST SESSION WASNT BAD

AND I WAS FEELING PRETTY GLAD

BUT THE EFFECTS ARE WORSE

IT MAKES ME SAD

I CRAWL MYSELF TO THE TUB

YOU CANT DO A THING FOR ME

FOR THE POISON IN MY BODY

MUST RUN ITS COURSE YOU SEE

FROM 3 AM TILL 3PM

I SIT AND FLOAT IN WATER

MY POOR MOTHER SITS AND CRIES

TO SEE THIS HAPPEN TO HER DAUGHTER

YES SOMETIMES I SIT AND CRY

BUT NOT BECAUSE IM ASKING WHY

MY BODY HURTS

WAY DEEP INSIDE

THREE MORE SESSIONS

I MUST TRUDGE ON

TO MAKE SURE THIS SHIT IS GONE

AND GET BACK TO LIFE WHERE I BELONG

I AM STRONG

ITS JUST TAKES SO LONG

SO FOR NOW ILL SHED NO TEAR

FOR OUT OF MY LIFE ILL LOSE A YEAR

AND IN 5 YEARS I CAN SAY IM CLEAR

[tommicats]

Originally Posted by tommicats

chemo...again


OH THE POUNDING IN MY HEAD

HOW LONG WILL I BE IN BED

THIS THING CALLED CHEMO THAT I DREAD

THE FIRST SESSION WASNT BAD

AND I WAS FEELING PRETTY GLAD

BUT THE EFFECTS ARE WORSE

IT MAKES ME SAD

I CRAWL MYSELF TO THE TUB

YOU CANT DO A THING FOR ME

FOR THE POISON IN MY BODY

MUST RUN ITS COURSE YOU SEE

FROM 3 AM TILL 3PM

I SIT AND FLOAT IN WATER

MY POOR MOTHER SITS AND CRIES

TO SEE THIS HAPPEN TO HER DAUGHTER

YES SOMETIMES I SIT AND CRY

BUT NOT BECAUSE IM ASKING WHY

MY BODY HURTS

WAY DEEP INSIDE

THREE MORE SESSIONS

I MUST TRUDGE ON

TO MAKE SURE THIS SHIT IS GONE

AND GET BACK TO LIFE WHERE I BELONG

I AM STRONG

ITS JUST TAKES SO LONG

SO FOR NOW ILL SHED NO TEAR

FOR OUT OF MY LIFE ILL LOSE A YEAR

AND IN 5 YEARS I CAN SAY IM CLEAR

Making the appointment
Setting the date
To go down and get poisoned
Boy isn't that great
Ill sit in a chair
At the TV ill stare
And in 21 days
Ill have lost my hair
Just a step
To becoming free
Please do not
Be afraid for me
Its only cancer
Cant you see
I may have it
But it doesn't have me

[BabyBoomer]

Thank you for keeping us updated on your progress of getting through this. We are with you, hair or not. As you know, we are mostly a gentle community and we "see" with our hearts. You are not alone, we are here, 24/7, and five years from now, I pray we are all sharing a bowl of victory with you.

Hugs,

Boomer



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Originally Posted by tommicats

chemo...again


OH THE POUNDING IN MY HEAD

HOW LONG WILL I BE IN BED

THIS THING CALLED CHEMO THAT I DREAD

THE FIRST SESSION WASNT BAD

AND I WAS FEELING PRETTY GLAD

BUT THE EFFECTS ARE WORSE

IT MAKES ME SAD

I CRAWL MYSELF TO THE TUB

YOU CANT DO A THING FOR ME

FOR THE POISON IN MY BODY

MUST RUN ITS COURSE YOU SEE

FROM 3 AM TILL 3PM

I SIT AND FLOAT IN WATER

MY POOR MOTHER SITS AND CRIES

TO SEE THIS HAPPEN TO HER DAUGHTER

YES SOMETIMES I SIT AND CRY

BUT NOT BECAUSE IM ASKING WHY

MY BODY HURTS

WAY DEEP INSIDE

THREE MORE SESSIONS

I MUST TRUDGE ON

TO MAKE SURE THIS SHIT IS GONE

AND GET BACK TO LIFE WHERE I BELONG

I AM STRONG

ITS JUST TAKES SO LONG

SO FOR NOW ILL SHED NO TEAR

FOR OUT OF MY LIFE ILL LOSE A YEAR

AND IN 5 YEARS I CAN SAY IM CLEAR

I'll be thinking of you today. I have never been through this so I can't even begin to imagine how difficult it must be. Your poem really is inspirational, it's amazing that you can make art out of something so difficult.

Just keep fighting, there is a light at the end of this tunnel. Much love!

[Ulalume]

Please be strong, tommicats, and know that we are all here to support you and cheer you on.

We are all so proud of you and your spirit. Battle on, friend. You will beat this.

[labrat]

hang in there !! are prayers are with ya !! much luv jim!!

[Graehstone]

Hello there beautiful lady ... I am stunned, in awe and greatly humbled, your poetry touches deep places, personal places ... thank you so much for sharing that with us.
As far as the hair goes (I checked out your myspace page) ... well Hot Diggity Damn, I think you are a stunner either way, actually even more so with no hair in my opinion.
You are not defined by your hair or the number of breasts you have but rather what shines out from the inside.
So I guess I am saying you are a shiny lady ... wait, that just sounds wrong huh? lmao
Besides ... handsome (your son) can only come from beautiful.
May all your days be filled with Health, Love and Happiness and your nights with Passion.

[HappaGuy]

You are quite a poet!

I for one will be grateful when you contrive to stick around and make more.

BTW, I imagine you may know this already but in your position it's probably helpful to hear it from somebody else:

Life is not fair. In fact it is perfectly monstrous to genuinely good people, and so perfectly lovely to the monstrous, and on such a regular basis, that it may be regarded as a machine devised for the production of bloody irony.

It is my hope that that insight can reduce your suffering at least. I can do nothing for your pain but pray. There, I just prayed at you too.

It's also quirky. I got lucky and finally got diagnosed (with hidden-epilepsy) after 15 years of debility. May serendipity be rather quicker on its way to you.

BTW have you looked into the research showing anti-tumor properties of cannabis? There is also research that shows certain cannabinoids increase the effect of others ("potentiation") by something like twenty times in certain cases, but only when in the proper concentration-ratio to the other. Likewise certain cannabinoids reduce the effect of others.

So there may be a more medicine in your MMJ than you are getting now. Just gotta extract and mix the right molecules. This is something I hope you'll discuss with your doctor.

The anti-tumor research I've already posted on WT. Please search. I'll try to get the "potentiation ratio" research from ASA today and post it soon.

Anything has got to be better than that damned chemo (except maybe death).