[endlesssky]

hey there, how's everyone doing, today, i will try and make this short, but i am long winded a bit, so please bare with me, thankyou! i had a DR, appt on tue's with what i thought was my pain DR instead it was a PHD with an evaluation of my mental state, for pain management, wish i knew that going in, i thought they were going to ask about pain, but instead i get these question's about suscide and how many time's iv'e been hospitalixed for it and childhood stuff, by the time he was done he had diagnosed with PTSD andborderline personality disorders!!! i have been in therapy for 15 year's. so i tested him, and he failed, he's not to be trusted, told me to watch what i say or he could put me away, he was laughing, but i don't think thats funny at all, maybe he should try being locked up and everything taken from him like his right's, they never told me about this this, i already have a thearpist and don;t need two of them at once . it will get me confused as what i doing, i called me thearpist about what happened and she was not to happy, as a matter of fact i think it was very unethical of the pain mangement to do to me.he was ok to me till i told him that mental health misdiagnosed with bipolar disorder and i have been off meds for 18 months with no episodes, her just rolled his eyes at me and it was over from there, after that everything that came out of my mouth was suspect and he just didn;t belive me at all, so now i;m up a creek without a paddle for my pain meds, they have had me methadone and oxycontin for 5 to 8 years and now want to take me off, even tho i have legitmate pain diagnoses. they said because i have sleep apena i might not wake up at night, well i say there's worse thing than dying!!!!!! and if i can't move i can't live,!! well i'm not to sure what to do now. they want me to do the bubble test unknown the one!! i don;t like this guy at all, so i didn't tell him about the mmj, i figure if he wants to know he can look at it in my chart, if they even open it up!!! see you all and good luck to eveyone and stay pain free as possiable and keep on trugeing that happy road of destiney . Endlesssky :tsad:

hey, it's a month later and I hope you're doing better. Apparently, nobody seemed to be able to help you, so I'll try. I know that having any psychiatrist/psychologist who does not respect you is a horrible doctor to have, but you have a history of bipolar disorder - which is apparently the diagnosis du jour. I'm unipolar and I had to adamantly refuse lithium treatment from Kaiser. So, you need to take care of yourself, and if your doctors aren't helping you - find new ones asap.
As far as oxycontin goes, my sister has been on pain medication for years and years. To be honest, she is doing it because she's an addict now. She has had opiate addiction going back about 25 years or so. They've got her on buprenorphine now and it seems like a good one for her. I've tried it myself and it is good for pain. Apparently it's kind of satisfying, but not like the real thing. Bupe lasts a long, long time. Anyway, it seems to be doing the trick for her.
Good luck to you - and to those of you who have crappy doctors, or doctors who don't care about you anymore - gotta find a new one. You don't want to go through hard times with a crappy doctor. Could be the worst experience of your life.

[Au_Hunter]

Originally Posted by senorlou

hey, it's a month later and I hope you're doing better. Apparently, nobody seemed to be able to help you, so I'll try. I know that having any psychiatrist/psychologist who does not respect you is a horrible doctor to have, but you have a history of bipolar disorder - which is apparently the diagnosis du jour. I'm unipolar and I had to adamantly refuse lithium treatment from Kaiser. So, you need to take care of yourself, and if your doctors aren't helping you - find new ones asap.
As far as oxycontin goes, my sister has been on pain medication for years and years. To be honest, she is doing it because she's an addict now. She has had opiate addiction going back about 25 years or so. They've got her on buprenorphine now and it seems like a good one for her. I've tried it myself and it is good for pain. Apparently it's kind of satisfying, but not like the real thing. Bupe lasts a long, long time. Anyway, it seems to be doing the trick for her.
Good luck to you - and to those of you who have crappy doctors, or doctors who don't care about you anymore - gotta find a new one. You don't want to go through hard times with a crappy doctor. Could be the worst experience of your life.

senorlou,

Thanks for bring this to the front page...

I missed it, but have been very busy the last month. Just a tad bit of history Seniorlou, endlesssky doesn't have any choices. She is "in the system" and lacks private insurance unless my memory is faulty or things have changed.

Endless, I do miss our PM's and I thought you had moved on or I would have inquired... but you are still in my prayers and I hope this is the only issue yet to be resolved.

I once spent much more time here, but have engaged in other activities that have kept me off line except for checking emails and jumping into here as I can.

Stay strong and just remain calm, laugh at their silly questions when appropriate... We don't wanting them to diagnose you as Manic... :slaugh: but have some fun with them... It disarms them when you are happy.

Wishing you loads of comfort and don't worry about the "Boarderline" anything... They need something, some way to justify their time and existance.

[endlesssky]

thanks for all the replys, they help out alot, just to know i am not alone in this fight! this DR's office threathed me yesterday that if i missed my biofeedback appt they would drop from the pain mangament and everything, even if i am sick and right now my leg's have 3 plus edma you touch my legs and i scream and trying to walk is a whole other subject, i can;t even get my shoes on and my primary care told me to keep them up, but they won't let me ! if i don't go they will cut me off cold trukey from methadone and oxycontin, i want to know how they can do that when i am a terminal patient and sick as i am, so i am stopping off at my primary care to get a note to let them have it! i wish my primary care would take over my pain meds, but he told me i was to complicated and he was already overwhemed with my other diagnoses,,,,, that's suck's,, so we will see what happens tommrow, i will go but they are getting my two cents about threathing me or anyone for that matter, what about the oath they have to take , dos'nt that mean anything anymore whatever happened to that!! MY DAD WAS A DR for gods sake and i get the worst treamenet even from STANFORD they tuned me away from a liver transplant and my father and grandfather were alumni their, what BS this world is, only the wealthy get the good DR, who think that life is important no matter who we are!!! live long and propure,, Endlesssky i will be ok, i hope, see ya next time around. time to go medicate so i can get some sleep, their suppost to do a CT scan of my siusi to find a blockage wish me luck Endlesssky ps if it's not one thing it;s another!! ani't that the truth!!:partysmile: