[WT Anonymous Poster]

I'm beginning to get very worried. I'm in a relationship and for several weeks if we argue and now if I even anticipate speaking to her a growing and now massive amount of adrenaline hits me. It's bad enough that it can double me over with pain to my stomach. I start hyperventilating and the whole fight or flight physiological experience slams me. The only thing I can do is shut up because I know I'm not thinking right and it leads to cross words and more argument which makes it much worse. I've gotten up and left but when I even think of returning the whole thing kicks in again. My palms are sweating just typing this. I don't want to argue with this person I care for but the physiological feels like it's taking over. I'm starting to worry about what I might do rather than what I think or say. Also I can't smoke enough pot to make this stop. Believe me I've tried. It isn't working at least for now.

Short of turning myself in to a lock down facility any suggestions?

[MadRiverTurtle]

Hi,

If you can I would try going to a safe place to rest for a bit. If you concentrate on breathing deeply you might find some relief. Your adrenaline is running because you're most likely having a panic attack (I'm not a doctor, so please just take this as someone speaking from personal experience. I'm just going off of your description). You don't need to go to a lock down facility, you're not alone and you will be okay. Just remember that, especially if you start to feel this happen again. Panic attacks are dreadfully scary but if you can just hold on and breath deeply they will eventually pass. I strongly recommend that you see someone, even go to your primary care physician if you can't get in to see a psychiatrist/psychologist soon enough. If you don't have coverage there are free clinics at most major cities in Ca.

I wish I could write more but I have to go. Please PM or email me if you want: madriverturtle@weedtracker.com. You'll be in my thoughts.

Best,
MRT

Perhaps more pot isn't the answer.

It doesn't cure things. But it does mask emotional pain, not eliminate it. Have you considered counseling? It's by far the best tool to treat PTSD and coping issues.

Counseling can be cheap to free. I don't what area you are in but if it's LA, make another anon post. I have a list of free and sliding scale therapists and clinics.

MMJ is a wonderful thing but if you have issues that you supress with MMJ, you may never be rid of them or they may cause you long, unneeded suffering.

If you are worried by your reactions, or feel like you might lose control, it's time to get some professional help and get some long term releif.

I see a therapist who supports my use of MMJ. Most aren't judgemental and want to see you happy and free.

Best Wishes to you.

[Lani]

I understand this very very well I also suffer from Post traumatic stress dissorder it's coupled with another dissorder i won't disclose but trust this I so understand, Pm me I'd like to talk more with you about this privately I know these episodes can make me feel like i need to hurt myself and I hope this is not he case for you. The most effective counseling I ever recieved was at my local free clinic. hope to hear from you but if I don't please go to somone you can trust about this.

[tokermom]

The posters before me are right. I too think these are panic attacks (Family history of them) I have seen many of them & experienced one full blown one myself. If this happens while you are medicated, it might be causing some of your problems. Even though MMJ helps so many conditions, it has caused panic attacks in people I know. It sounds like this is only caused from the person you are having these issues from. Or does it happen at other times? Please take the advice above & see a professional. You may have to take anxiety medicine for awhile. The advice from MRT is very good. Breathing deeply while this is happening will help. I think whatever the issue is with this person needs to be resolved, or these feelings will continue. Your post doesn't say how this person is connected to you, but if you can, distance yourself from them until you can figure out why this is happening. Please know people care & if you need to talk- we are here for you. MRT & Lani have offered their support & if you need to talk privately, you can PM any of us. Hang in there & know that these symtoms can be helped. Best Wishes for Better Days!

[BabyBoomer]

Sending positive thoughts and energy to you.

Please know that you are not alone. We may not have the exact answer for you, but we will try, and there is always someone here, always.

I wonder if you write out some of the issues you are experiencing and show them to her. Maybe that would be a safe place to start. I'm just trying to think of something that you can do to work out your relationship problems that would feel safer for you.

And maybe pouring your heart out on a keyboard may be of help.

But please seek out help. It is amazing how talking to someone else, especially a therapist, can be of so much help. There may be a trigger point that they can recognize and help you work through it. Let kwicky know your area so he can give you some contact information.

Please continue to let us know how you are. We really care and we really want you to feel better.


I'm thinking of you with my heart.



Boomer


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[Likestheherb]

Originally Posted by WT Anonymous Poster

I'm beginning to get very worried. I'm in a relationship and for several weeks if we argue and now if I even anticipate speaking to her a growing and now massive amount of adrenaline hits me. It's bad enough that it can double me over with pain to my stomach. I start hyperventilating and the whole fight or flight physiological experience slams me. The only thing I can do is shut up because I know I'm not thinking right and it leads to cross words and more argument which makes it much worse. I've gotten up and left but when I even think of returning the whole thing kicks in again. My palms are sweating just typing this. I don't want to argue with this person I care for but the physiological feels like it's taking over. I'm starting to worry about what I might do rather than what I think or say. Also I can't smoke enough pot to make this stop. Believe me I've tried. It isn't working at least for now.

Short of turning myself in to a lock down facility any suggestions?

I feel for you and what you are going through. I dont share my Illnesses often. Very couragous of you to reach out for help. I do know what you are going through. I can only offer you my prayers.
As I dont have any answers as to why we suffer form this.
As for MMJ I avoid sativas they make my Anxiety/panic worse. Doctors gave me a bunch of seditives. They do calm me but I dont like them. I have found prayer helps me most.
I hope you are in a good place. Be well

[WT Anonymous Poster]

Originally Posted by WT Anonymous Poster

I'm beginning to get very worried. I'm in a relationship and for several weeks if we argue and now if I even anticipate speaking to her a growing and now massive amount of adrenaline hits me. It's bad enough that it can double me over with pain to my stomach. I start hyperventilating and the whole fight or flight physiological experience slams me. The only thing I can do is shut up because I know I'm not thinking right and it leads to cross words and more argument which makes it much worse. I've gotten up and left but when I even think of returning the whole thing kicks in again. My palms are sweating just typing this. I don't want to argue with this person I care for but the physiological feels like it's taking over. I'm starting to worry about what I might do rather than what I think or say. Also I can't smoke enough pot to make this stop. Believe me I've tried. It isn't working at least for now.

Short of turning myself in to a lock down facility any suggestions?

I feel exactly the same. Counseling would probably be best for both of us. A good indica can help calm my nerves but it doesn't take away the problem. You have to face those, but it doesn't have to be alone. Lock down places can be helpful if that is what you are looking for. Much love.

[jahjuice]

I go through the EXACT SAME THING (- EXCEPT WANTING TO HURT PEOPLE BESIDES MYSELF)-woo I originally wrote that () portion quite oppisite of what I meant lol. I was crying reading your post. I'm now mainly a hash and kief smoker since getting my rec. for IBS and anxiety A good SOOTHING HASH and DEEP BREATHING are my only resources besides a reocurring threat to go to therapy. I finally called after reading this thread.
No one answered since 6:30ish is typically after buisness hours.
Thanks so much for everyones post, its so needed

It's over a month later. I hope you're doing better, but here's some advice if you're not.
The bad news is, there are no easy answers. If you're having full-blown panic attacks, see a doctor ASAP because, in my experience, panic attacks just get worse without drugs. MMJ, great as it is, doesn't work for me when I'm in a depression having panic attacks. I need benzos (Xanax, Ativan, Valium, etc) which are about as addictive as heroin. You may be entering a depression, reliving the PTSD to the point of madness (hopefully not). Then throw in a new relationship on top of that, and it's tough. I am sorry you are/were suffering.
Relationships and mental illness don't mix well, at least for me (depressive, PTSD, anxiety, etc). I haven't been in a real relationship for years. Hard to find somebody who understands. I often feel trapped when I fall into a relationship. I have never felt "ready" for a relationship. I don't know if that means anything to you. Relationships, for whatever reason, never pan out for me.
Last thing - and this is terrible to say - but you should take a good, hard look at your partner there you're hooked up with. Sometimes, unfortunately, we are attracted to people who aren't exactly healthy for us. this is especially true for those of us with low self esteem (most depressives). When I'm at the point of panic, I try to slow my life down as much as possible (sometimes, stop it because I can't function), make sense of it, and get better. MMJ helps me take it all less seriously when I'm out of a depression. It keeps me out and relieves my stress. Anyway, good luck everyone!

[NewVoid]

I don't think he's not getting panic attacks. Physiological symptoms from stress does not mean it's automatically panic attacks. Panic attacks is when you are so anxious that think you panic cos you feel like are dying. He knows he's not dying. He just grows so angry that he gets physiological symptoms. That's different than panic. He's afraid of what he will do when he's that angry. He's a good guy and has removed himself from the situation when he gets to that point. Luckily, these days there are non addictive medications out there that can give you great relief in stressful times. I would talk to a doctor.