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Originally Posted by emericakush714  Some recent events have really brought me down. I've decided today that i must quit my cannabis meds so i can get a job. Being out of work since november and not being able to go to school have pretty much made me sit here at home by myself. I've decided to distract myself with bike rides and now i want to train for soccer again (which i havent played since my high school rejected me after ten years of play, which really hurt my spirit). Also, im taking up dance to impress the ladies (lol)
I don't know how to deal with it, it seems like sometimes ill be content and then these depressing thought come in my head and i break down. I don't use cannabis for depression because for the most part im an extremely happy person, but i think the pressure has finally broke me down. I dont know, i just need to distract myself from these stupid mind fucks i put myself through.
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I dont know, i just need to distract myself from these stupid mind fucks i put myself through.
That right there is a big clue...
Do you see/read it?
My friend, it is one thing to self analyze in a realistic fashion, yet another to place negative aspersions upon your self.
If I think my MMJ use is keeping me from accomplishing my goals I can set my own parameters in a positive way.
If I kick myself in the butt because I use MMJ which I believe is detrimental to making money over and over, yet continue my use all I am doing is setting a negative tone inside my own head.
One must compromise... You will never be a commercial pilot using MMJ because the airlines test...
If your skill set is incompatable with MMJ use, you will either need to find a new skill set so you can continue using MMJ or stop MMJ.
I used for many years and had a career where testing wasn't an issue. It was labor intensive, yet was also a special skill and I made good money as a telephone cable splicer.
After a spinal surgery I continued to medicate although it wasn't yet legal, but could not return to my former career.
When another opportunity came my way that didn't require drug tests, but my use was incompatable I stopped voluntarily, flushed over a "Z" and gave away all my medication equipment...
I didn't use for about 10 years.
When that career ended I chose to get legal and return to using MMJ.
If I'm rambeling, please understand I'm trying to respectfully point out that you should not beat yourself up, stop doing that, but pick a course and begin with the first step.
Regardless of what that step is, take a positive step. You can always change direction at anytime.
The trail of life is long and filled with many alternet paths, we can back up, stop and rest or take any path we choose...
If I can assist in a more direct and personal PM chat, please let me know in more detail if you wish and I'll see if I can help fine tune my statements, but you have the power to be nice to yourself, so do that first.
Much luv
