Well everybody already said what I wanted to, so I'll say this, the same thing my father told me when he was dieing from cancer
"I will not lay down and die, I'm meaner than it is..."
"After having been shot 8 times and being left for dead in my life, I never thought a lil bug would be what killed me" :Icantfindthehappyfacethatworksforthis:
He was an old cowboy badass that lived by the sword and thought he would die by the sword
This was also a man that had cancer all over in his abdomen (Kidneys, bladder, stomach, colon etc.), he couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, always in pain, but never let on, he wouldn't let anyone see what he called "weakness", and would still ride horses (not fun with a colostomy bag :( ), fall off and get right back on. I offered to take the horse back for him, so he could go back to the house and rest once, that pissed him off... I didnt really understand, I'm starting to, but I couldnt, unless I was in his shoes...
I have no idea were I'm going with this other than, I hope things get easier for you, and never give up! (but I'm sure you wont)
Take care 666
