Codeman,
I feel for you because the loneliness of feeling like you aren't getting any love is f'ed up. I try and look to the friends to break the depressive ruts and what I do is when I get really bummed I will start thinking all sorts of a little over the top thoughts and I will think about it and dissect the thought and realize 'that isn't true.' And tell myself so.
Hope it helped to post your frustrations!
